CARAMELANCHOLYFLOWER

by Stephen Bard

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1.
03:38
The world is coming to an end Lazy and fat for far too long You are the superman You ought to act like one The spring could surge through rusty pipes The multitudes will sing along You are the superman You ought to act like one You are the superman Why don't you act like one? The world is rusting on your laurels Laurels make for drooping shoulders Everything is in the posture Atlas smile for the camera Water's leaking out somewhere Birds are nesting in your head Deliverance the body screams Save it for the living dead You are the superman You ought to act like one You are the superman Why don't you act like one? Irony's a good career choice How can you think with everything rhyming? Are you sure you want the attention? Well then smile for the camera Smile for the camera Everyone loves you Smile for the camera The world is coming to an end Won't be long before it's done You are the superman You ought to act like one You are the superman Why don't you act like one?
2.
Every morning over there at Jake's coffee shop Early rose girl taking time to stop Looks like she's smiling and laughing a lot Through the blind It's pretty clear now that I've lost my mind Rearranging the alarm Hardly sleeping at all So I can follow her down to the Salvation Hall Hiding in the car How could she possibly see What's good about a guy like me? I wake up and it's Tuesday Her visiting day She brings a batch of toys around And watches them play Looks like she's hugging and kissing them all Through the shade Now I'm three behind her in the Gay Rights Parade And if there's any good here It remains to be seen Too busy with the mouse And all these chicks on the screen If I'm lying in a bar How could she possibly see What's good about a guy like me? Wednesday night she runs NA The heroin(e) to all who stay Thursday mornings at the Y She drains the river Jordan dry Weekends if she's on some date I sit at home and master...video games Video games! Another morning over there at Jake's coffee shop I'm looking for the angel but she doesn't show up Nobody seems to be smiling at all Through the blind It's pretty clear now that I've lost my mind
3.
I've been trying to make friends With the hole here in my soul I'd like to be a rock But I usually end up rolling I'm staring out at a dark horizon line Impossibly real where the water feels like wine Sometimes I actually get so high Other times I just feel like crying Most of the time, yeah I'm feeling fine Time of my life and it sure is flying by Sure is flying by The sky like a dome Painted marble proscenium arch An ocean of its own A mirror in the darkness The moon hangs alone A spotlight over the sea A benign indifference whispering to me If there's anything I've learned at all From this strange situation Do things in moderation yes But don't forget to be good to yourself Selflessness is fine I guess But don't you forget to be good to yourself You won't be much good to anybody else If you don't let yourself be good to yourself
4.
05:00
You kiss like the summer when I was 14 I never felt so dirty I never felt so clean Don't get me wrong There ain't nothin' 14 about what we've just done But I'm nervous and sweaty and feeling so dumb Feeling so dumb Suddenly I feel like I'm 14 Tonight on the couch I just had to laugh You took all my worries and cut them in half Don't get me wrong I'm still worried some secret will steal you away Oh there's so many words and they're so hard to say Suddenly I feel like I'm 14 How you make me feel Flying so high I don't want to come down Falling so hard with my feet off the ground So shout it from the rooftops down to the street I must be in love I can't sleep, I can't eat Don't get me wrong I should be fast asleep after what we've just done But I'm fixed on the moon with my mind on the run My mind on the run Suddenly I feel like I'm 14 How you make me feel like I'm 14 Flying so high I don't want to come down
5.
Every beautiful day Goes by you in that way That makes you think it could last forever But immortality is something that I'd only agree to If me and you could see it through together I know that's not the way it's gonna go It's cool as long as I know that you know I'm grateful for this life And to live it by your side So I'm thanking you with all I do and say For every beautiful day Every beautiful night that you turn out the light And lay me out across this bed we've made I think of all the years The struggles and the tears And I'm humbled and amazed you even stayed Because I know that's not the way it had to go I almost lost the only thing I'll ever know I'm grateful for this life Even all the pain and strife So I'm thanking you with all that's true and right For every beautiful night Winter's here again in the quiet sleeping grass You try to slow it down But turn around, the moment's passed And summer's here again With the grass awake and green One of the most comforting things I've ever seen The sky so bright and blue I look at it and pray to spend this life with you... Every beautiful day I'm grateful for this life And to live it by your side So I'm loving you with nothing in the way I'm grateful now to live this life In this skin and by your side So I'm thanking you with all I do and say For every beautiful day
6.
I can’t take this whistle in the morning Telling me to get out of the bed And I can’t take these companies pretending There ain’t nothin’ heavy in the bread I can’t take these industries believing This world of ours ain’t hangin’ by a thread And I can’t take these governments deceiving Honest folk with everything they’ve ever said But you, you, you I can take Everything you do and all you say Yes you, you, you, you I can take Every day, every day Every day until my dying day Now I can’t take this news on television Especially when most of it ain’t even true And I can’t take no musical decision To play it white when everybody knows it’s black and blue I can’t take these smiling politicians Promising it all to get my vote And I can’t take that if we all went fishin’ These crooks would probably push our asses right out of the boat But you, you, you I can take Everything you say and all you do Yes you, you, you, you I can take Every day, come what may Every day until this life is through Make an honest man out of me All I need is you to love me And to see your face each time I wake Oh let me see your face each time I wake ‘Cause I can’t take this whistle in the morning…
7.
04:06
Before you know it, it is autumn again You take a walk in it to take it in The leaves are splashing color across the trees It blows your mind upon a silver breeze Is this a fantasy or is it for real? All I know is that it feels so wild I have no expectations of this reality I'm just so happy that you're here with me Before you know it, it is springtime again Put on your birthday suit and jump right in Sky blue raspberry clouds God's new Italian ice You're pretty sure this must be paradise Is this a dream we're having or are we awake? All I know is that it makes you smile I have no expectations of this reality I'm just so happy that you're here with me I'll make the salad, honey You make your savory stew I'm just so lucky to be here with you The present is the present And the present is the present The present is the present And the present's that you're present with me now Before you know it, it is autumn again Let's take a walk in it to take it in
8.
22 and I'm heading for the gym Working off my ass at the brand new job Money's good but I'm running out of time Was gonna buy the ring before the party last night And it's 1:30 on a stranger's cot All fuzzy and I can't find my phone Still up, I'll down another shot Why not? She's not a stranger anymore Where are you now? Why have you abandoned me? 39 and I think I've had enough She's on a plane 'cause her mom is real sick Tom's always talking 'bout The Great Big F Forgiveness...that's the real trick Two weeks alone with the boys is a lot I'm looking old in this photograph It's still the best high I ever got Why not? It's been a year and a half 24 was too damn young So much fire in the both of us Now the snow uncovers everything And everything is a lot to discuss She's coming home to this very spot I'm in the closet now with all I've got left Don't know why but we'll take another shot Why not? Maybe it's The Great Big F Where are you now? Why have you abandoned me?
9.
I dreamt I met Paul Simon. He was carrying a flute. I said, “I really dig your music, man. For me, there is no substitute.” He said, “Yeah, well you know, I appreciate that. Always tried to do my best. A diamond in the desert Means you’re somewhat cursed but mostly blessed.” So many things I’d like to have said - All I could say was thank you. So many words stuck here in my head – All I could say was thank you. I dreamt I met Art Garfunkel outside Terminal 5. I said, “The way you sang those songs he wrote, man, Makes me glad to be alive.” He said, “Yeah, well you know, I appreciate that. The song always did come first. A diamond in the desert Means you’re mostly blessed but somewhat cursed.” Why is it always stupid pride that gunks it up somehow? Humility and gratitude – Lord knows we need ‘em now. Make the call, apologize - let all those feelings go. If you need someone so bad, don’t be afraid to let ‘em know. Let ‘em know. Work it out. I dreamt I met Paul Simon. He was coming off the stage. I said, “Man, you’re the last of a special breed – A treasure from another age.” He said, “Yeah, well you know, I appreciate that. Always tried to do my best. A diamond in the desert Means you’re somewhat cursed but mostly blessed.”
10.
Maybe it didn’t turn out the way you thought And maybe in a room full of mirrors you got caught And maybe all these demons that you fought Were only there to tear you down again So maybe you could get back up and start to learnin’ And maybe see which way the world is turnin’ And maybe put out all the hate that’s burnin’ It only leaves you lonely in the end It might be hard right now for you to see But the God in you is clear to me Just think of all the things that we could do If the God in you was clear to you Maybe you dig the high but there’s a hitch And maybe nothing seems to scratch the itch And maybe insecurity’s a bitch Who says you better tow the line or else So maybe you take that leap and go for bust And maybe faith is somewhere in the dust And baby if you can’t find a way to trust Then how you gonna reach your highest self? I know it’s hard right now for you to see But the God in you is clear to me Just think of all the things that we could do If the God in you was clear to you
11.
Sweet sad rose by a river flowing Sweet sad rose and you give her knowing She won’t ever be the kind to give it back to you Though it’s all that’s in your mind there’s nothing you can do But that’s just how it goes With a sweet sad rose in a selfish garden Sweet sad rose – One can’t help but harden Knowing there’s a wall no one could ever hope to scale Sure to give it all despite the fact you’re bound to fail And everybody knows Sweet sad rose Then there comes an evening where the pleasure is so thick You can’t imagine leaving without feeling very sick And after all the heartache she can give She knows that she’s still positively Haunting from her head down to her painted toes Sweet sad rose by your bed undressing Sweet sad rose – in your head, you’re guessing She won’t ever be the kind to settle down for good How you’d love to change her mind as if anyone could But it seems no doubt this dream’s about to close Sweet sad rose
12.
I’ve been staring at the sky and basking in the breeze As it makes its lazy way across the fields and through the trees And none of it has anything at all to do with me But the way it makes me feel is real It was here before I got here - It’ll be here when I’m gone When each of us has turned to dust the wind will carry on And I’ll never own the sunset and I’ll never touch the dawn But the way it makes me feel is real The way it makes me feel is real And I just want to thank you for each moment in the sunlight And I just want to thank you for each moment in the rain And I just want to thank you When you help me through the long night How the pleasure seems to balance out the pain Through each and every moment of the day, of the day ‘Cause I know that it ain’t easy and I know that it won't last And I know there is no future and I know there is no past And I know it’s gonna end someday And baby, that's just the deal But the way it makes me feel is real

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Followup to FULL ON CRAZY CHOCOLATE.
Predecessor to BETWEEN US, Vol. 1: YOU.

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released September 23, 2017

Written, Arranged, Produced and Performed by Stephen Bard.
Recorded and Mixed by Stephen Bard, with thanks to Ryan Ball.

Copyright 2017. Chocolate Covered Strawberry Music (ASCAP).
Daily Natural Alternative Records. DNA 009.

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